'why'

its so weird that im really in my blog-ing mood (wearing my glasses) wow its actually happen

ok where should i start um lets talk about 'holidays' well its not really like a 'holidays' like that cause you know when i said its 'holidays' people will like "oh its a family vacation" or something but no i mean like no  its just like a 'school break' ok just a school break well you know what i mean right? or should i say a break after a very hard mind working mid year examination which i know i'll fail my math test. heh i just knew it

ok lets not talk about how-i-do-wost-in-my-math-test

soo

this lately i've been sooo sooo sooo .... different
well
kinda
sorta
umm yeah
ok whatever lets just say that i just turn into a very fucktard little bitch in just 1 sec ok, we can said that wow? did myself just curse myself? wow just wow i mean wow like w0oOow ok i think i should stop wow-ing its kinda annoying umm well it all started when i am really not in a good condition which means im hungry and having a hard time on something that i have no idea how to figure it out and a niaga falls from my vigina through my underwear and my there is my brother messing up wiith my insecurities ugh its really really turn out bad because im really really freak out... (well not that kind of throwing things or yelling like a mad women who got a divorce by a billionaire math freak or whatsoever ) its ... freak out too but inside, you know? its like you're really angry but you know you cant against him and its turn into a very silence tears.

And there's me crying in the toilet while keep asking myself "WHY" ? why you are ugly why you are stupid  why are you keep hopping on someone who doesn't even know you exist why my life can be like gabriella motez on high school musical why can you be good at maths oh maths again why am i keep talking about maths? i hate maths why this and why that this whole thing is sucha pain. The kind of pain that no one can heals even my girlfriends or even my cousin which is now havin a hot girlfriend and busy making time together and could care less about me well whatever and when im just about to stand up there's goes the guy that im havin crush on since 2012 but never notice how i am the one that always being there for him no matter what happen even if its raining and i can be his umbrella, listening to his un-funny jokes but still laughing like a horse and he keep giving those fake hopes to me... well maybe im the one to blame well &maybe thats how he treat his 'friendsssss' like you know keep giving me those "i miss you, dont chu miss me" text. its actually givin me a heart bumps but i know it not even true yeap its kinda sad. haha silly me i mean like who the hell on earth gonna fall in love with me oh no no i mean 'likes' me using that "fall in love" words are kinda makes me look old eiw  i mean likes the real me that can handle me at my worst buy me mcdonald when im hungry eating oreo ice cream together and teach me maths and wears braces ok i think im dont know where im goin like im just talking like boom that and this i yes i know no one will read this (except for my girlfriend who stalking me for some reason i dont know why they are soooo obsess with me) hi babe know you're reading this  and im just havin an emotional night and i guess im fine. ok stars i should stop now i know i know whatever just gonna keep those head high and stay positive and blablabla i wish my life have a restart button


xoxo
Your Princess