2015

IM GONNA RE-CREATE MY BLOG AND DO LOTS LOTS N LOTS OF POST NOW. IT MIGHT TAKE A WHILE BUT I'LL TRY (: I MISS BLOGGING SO MUCH. AND WHOEVER WHO READ THIS OH MY GOD HAPPY NEW YEAR ITS FREAKING 2015 AND OF COURSE MANY SHIT WILL COMING BUT COME ON LETS GET TROUGH THIS OKAY? OKAY. 

LOVES,
YOUR PRINCESS

'why'

its so weird that im really in my blog-ing mood (wearing my glasses) wow its actually happen

ok where should i start um lets talk about 'holidays' well its not really like a 'holidays' like that cause you know when i said its 'holidays' people will like "oh its a family vacation" or something but no i mean like no  its just like a 'school break' ok just a school break well you know what i mean right? or should i say a break after a very hard mind working mid year examination which i know i'll fail my math test. heh i just knew it

ok lets not talk about how-i-do-wost-in-my-math-test

soo

this lately i've been sooo sooo sooo .... different
well
kinda
sorta
umm yeah
ok whatever lets just say that i just turn into a very fucktard little bitch in just 1 sec ok, we can said that wow? did myself just curse myself? wow just wow i mean wow like w0oOow ok i think i should stop wow-ing its kinda annoying umm well it all started when i am really not in a good condition which means im hungry and having a hard time on something that i have no idea how to figure it out and a niaga falls from my vigina through my underwear and my there is my brother messing up wiith my insecurities ugh its really really turn out bad because im really really freak out... (well not that kind of throwing things or yelling like a mad women who got a divorce by a billionaire math freak or whatsoever ) its ... freak out too but inside, you know? its like you're really angry but you know you cant against him and its turn into a very silence tears.

And there's me crying in the toilet while keep asking myself "WHY" ? why you are ugly why you are stupid  why are you keep hopping on someone who doesn't even know you exist why my life can be like gabriella motez on high school musical why can you be good at maths oh maths again why am i keep talking about maths? i hate maths why this and why that this whole thing is sucha pain. The kind of pain that no one can heals even my girlfriends or even my cousin which is now havin a hot girlfriend and busy making time together and could care less about me well whatever and when im just about to stand up there's goes the guy that im havin crush on since 2012 but never notice how i am the one that always being there for him no matter what happen even if its raining and i can be his umbrella, listening to his un-funny jokes but still laughing like a horse and he keep giving those fake hopes to me... well maybe im the one to blame well &maybe thats how he treat his 'friendsssss' like you know keep giving me those "i miss you, dont chu miss me" text. its actually givin me a heart bumps but i know it not even true yeap its kinda sad. haha silly me i mean like who the hell on earth gonna fall in love with me oh no no i mean 'likes' me using that "fall in love" words are kinda makes me look old eiw  i mean likes the real me that can handle me at my worst buy me mcdonald when im hungry eating oreo ice cream together and teach me maths and wears braces ok i think im dont know where im goin like im just talking like boom that and this i yes i know no one will read this (except for my girlfriend who stalking me for some reason i dont know why they are soooo obsess with me) hi babe know you're reading this  and im just havin an emotional night and i guess im fine. ok stars i should stop now i know i know whatever just gonna keep those head high and stay positive and blablabla i wish my life have a restart button


xoxo
Your Princess

2 am

so holla people

its almost 2:20 in the morning, so yeah..

Its been a while jugak kan tak update this-so-called-blog hahah even tk ada readers sekali pun kisah pulak aku kan hihihi (gelak sopan) ehem ok ok so hows everything goin? good? same hereeeeeeee aish i was suppose to study kan lagi lagi waktu macam ni oh God, why ema whyyyyyyyyyyyy huh  i dont know why im getting lazier day by day. And guesss what lagi 3/4 weeks je lagi nak mid term exam i mean like whatafu man, and now dah nak masuk bulan 5 aku pmr bulan 10 ya Allah nak cover form 1&2 lagi aaargh maigerin maigerin haku!!! Haih i know la certain people will think like "ek eleh wei, pmr je punzzz bukan boleh bawak pun sijil tu minta keje esok" hey hey heyyyy memang la thats truee tapi tapi tapi pmr tu la bermula nya kita punya bidang. I dont want to be in 5 Arts 3 i want to be in 5 Science 1 or science agama ke boleh ambik arab! uish best jugak kan kan kan kan "kaifa halukum?" "Alhamdulilah ana bil khoirr" haaa tu je la aku tau hm basic arab pun takde ada hati nk masuk science agama? eeh tapi who knows kan ...

so... ((to be continue))

You'r just nothing

Have you ever feel like you'r just nothing to everyone?
Have you ever feel like you'r just have no one to talk about how shitty your day was?
Have you ever feel like wanna run away from eveything? and everyone? have you?

Have you ever feel like you'r just a useless person? oh wait

yes, i do.

Well sometimes

I just want everyone that used to be in my life just... just stay. I wont ask more,

I want them to be with me
I want them to calm me down
I want them to hear everything that I wanted to say
I want them to cry with me
I just want them to be my pillow

is that too much?

where are you when I needed you the most? yes you, the one who always said that you'll never leave me no matter what. And now? If you really really really really cant stay in my life forever then i guess you better dont have to come hurgh i cant even focusing on my studies its just too much. I miss everything, every single little things.

"cause you just wanna be seen, cause you just wanna be loved"

xoxo
Your Princess

Ain's Birthday

Hello? Remember me? Im the owner of this blog yuu whoo anyone hereeeeeeeeeee?





((Kek di tepi hidung))


Hah! remember now? Yes, Im the selekeh one. ugh whatever ok

Hahah so 2 weeks ago i guess, kitaorang semua sambut birthday Ain, (my wartegurlz/cupcakes/cipan) so at first, ingat semua nk buat kad ramai ramai jeeeeee but then rasa macam "owh, bowing arrh wei" so Amal pun "ape kata kita beli kek?! nak tak? nak tak?" and we was like "uish sape tak nak!!!! NAK LAH!!!" and we olls pun setuju beli kek secret kat Jusco. And the surprise begin ...


"beb, stayback eh hari ni"- Amal

"Alah penat aaah dah la semalam baru balik memanah nak balik tido ah" -Ain

"Takyah nganda boleh tak? Stayback je lah!!" -Amal

Nak dipendek kan cerita setelah diherdik dan ditampo nya oleh si Amal, Ain pun setuju

"Yelah -__________-" -Ain

Pastu ramai ramai la berkampung kat kantin tunggu Adam bawak kek nye,

JEN JEN JENG .....

dan Adam pun datang bersama kek,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUUUUUU YOUUUUUUUUU HAPPY BRITHDAY TOOOO AIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNN HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO YOUUUUU






Ain pun dengan muka pura pura malu dia tu huh puih

"Weh korang thanks weh!!!! Ya Allah tak sangka nya!!"

soo kejutan kami berjalan dengan berjaya dan sukses nya kikikih, so apalagi dengan lahap nya semua orang pun serbu kek!! terentengtengteng







SEE? semua rakus rakus dan termasuk lah ...






ok diam

Then, lepas dah main kek makan kek apa semua apalagi masing masing pun vain la suruh Irfan ambik gambar huh tak malu tol

Big thanks to my love, Amal Maisarah selaku ketua sponserrrrr kek and one of my wartegulz/cupcakes/tenggiling words cant describe shes's special to me <3 (:

Also Isha & Nana selaku teman membuat kad birthday untuk Ain. KAD BESAR LAK TUU HUHU tenkiuuuu babes <3 (:


And..... hello kalau takde gambar dengan birthdaygirl baik takyah update blog ok

Happy Birthday Ain, 2 years with you and thanks for having me as your wonderfull pet, I know we'r been trough all those shitty days ((with Qiss&Amal also)) but yet I was very thankful for all of you coz never leavin me alone. Alhamdulilah may this friendship will never end, Insya Allah (:

xoxo
Your Princess

A whisper from my heart

Lonely saturday night, i was alone watching those stars

 "its so beautiful, those starts are shining at me .. Momo! (my kitty) look at the stars!"
"meow.."
"haha Momo don't sleep!"
"..."
I'm lookin at the stars while thinking of someone
"will you stay with me even if i keep asking you to go?"
"...."
"Momo!! aswer me!"
I keep pushing my kitty,
"Meo.. Meow..Meow"
"Thanks Momo"


Suddenly i can feel y watery eyes but yet i still lookin at my kitty and  ignore my eyes then tears start to falling ... keep falling
i wiped it roughly

"I'm fine.."
"hey, im bleeding"
I heard a whisper from my heart
"no you'r not!! shut up im just fine!"

I really should listen to my friend, I mean it was a big big mistake for me to trust you from the start they were right

"bebe im worried bout you, so please listen to me. He's a jerk my friends know him. It wasn't like you were thinking! wake up! I don't want you to get hurt.. and stop pushing everyone that care for you away!  pls listen to us"

Yes, they were right i keep pushing everyone away just because of one guy. One guy. I really didn't even see everyone feelings at that time, at first I'm really pissed off! "Its not my fault! All of you are the one who ignore me!! Can you guys see that?!" hm yes i said that but then i taught they hating me because im choosing a guy that they didn't like to be with but.. but guees what? they never leave me. Yes! They never leave me after im saying that 'kind of stuff' u know umm it was a big mistake. Im sorry, i was all my fault a big thanks for the one who always stand by me, eventho im wrong they never leave. They keep tryin to protect me. Alhamdulilah, Thank you Allah.

Im running into my house, and go to my bedroom tears keep falling and falling everything was a mess!
I want to scream
I want to tell someone that im hurt so bad right now
"I better call ... um better not"
my friends always says that they will always be there for me, I know they will. But.. right now im just ... just, its not the right time i guess
I jump on the bed and keep on crying
"Ugh stop it! I got homework to do"
pushing my pillow down and taking my un-finish homework
i keep staring at my books and struggling to focusing on my studies since i'll be facing big exam soon
"get out from my mind..." i said while forcing myself from not to cry

i keep thinking of you,

"you are like my everything"
"please stay by my side? even if we'r not in the same school anymore and bla bla just stay"
"Hey! what are you sayin? we'r gonna get married soon so don't worry too much ok? hahah"

don't you know how much those words mean a lot to me? After giving me a looots of fakes hope and now you'r just sayin that "hey i have a girlfriend now!"my heart stop beating at this time, tryin to stay stong and ... and  I promise you things won't be the same, I try my best to stay away from you. Don't worry, I will show you how happy i am without you.

its hard, i mean harder then tough

"how could this happen to me?
 i made my mistake got no where to run
the night goes on as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just want to screaaaaaam
how could this happen to me?"

a song from simple plan plays on my mind, i cant stop thinking bout you. I hate the facts that im not liking you anymore but im started to love you. yess, i know for a 'fithteen-girl-like-me' its kinda a big joke right? but hey,  can't help it im just a girl

Then a few minutes later, after drinking a cold HL choclate milk i finally feel the air around me.
haha i can breath and suddenly, my brother crush into my bedroom, as usual he try to annoy me.

"Hey lil sisyy!!!!!! oowh doin your homework? sooooo sweet of you! Should i tell mom and dad?"
"Please go.."
"Hahahah come on!! hey lets eat together, mom bake some ca.."
"I SAID GET OUT!! CANT YOU SEE I'M BUSY RIGHT NOW?! GET OUT!!!! GET OUT FROM MY LIFE!!!"

And as usual, he always take my words as a joke and walk away
Im glad that he's exist at lease my pain goes away slowly, ha-ha

Then, I think I better stop thinking bout him
I should stop thinking bout you

So I get off from the bed quickly as quickly as i can
goin outside,

"Where's the hell is Momo and Miko.."
"HEY LOOK WHO'S COOOOMING, HEY COME HERE STUPID!!! COME HERE!"

I saw my brother and sister is playin with the kitten,
as I look at the skies and saw the stars is shinning for me I knew all the pain will recover, soon. I believe that everything happen for a reason, Allah knows everything. He plan everything, and who am i to complain eveything? Insya Allah, everything will be fine.

"HEYY DO NOT TOUCH MOMO!! HE'S MINE!!"

I said happily,

xoxo
Your Princess

Old friend

Assalamualaikum!!!!!!

ok ok ok teka lah siapa datang rumah aku pagi tadi? Teka lah!!!!11!1 ok ok drum roll tenenenenenenenennenene

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ATHIRAH!!!!!!!!1 ITS ATHIRAH!!!!!!!! OOOOH SAY WHAT???!!!?!?! ITS ATHIRAH GOSH IM TOO EXITED SEBAB LAMA GILA TAK JUMPA LIKE OMG SERIUS KE KAU NK DATNG OMG OMG AAAAAAAHHHH PFFTTT SOMEONE CALM ME DOWN PLS 

um sorry but i just can't i miss this girl like a lot A LOT :( and now baru dapat jumpa Alhamdulilah Ya Allah bersyukur nya aku!!!11!1!! so there's just too many stories uwwaa haha too many until i just can't spilt it out hahah silly me but we had sucha great time baru nak lepak lama lama and tiba tiba Izad (bf tira) nak ajak dating eee sibuk sibuk eee sibuk nyee tampa kang rawrr haha ee gediknyer someone i need a bitchslap now 

And after dipikir pikir hm takpe lah Izad pun susah nak jumpa tira I mean susah sangat sebab tira duduk dekat mrsm perak jauh kan kan kan hmn this is why i hate when my girlfriend dah ada pakwe you know i have to share her with Izad! Ahhh umm ok ok ok sorry im being too emotional tonite huh dah lah duduk kat perak hm takpe lah dah rezeki dia kat situ lagipun im sooo happy dia dapat kawan baru suasana baru lega laa sebab kawan dia pun baik baik so ada lah orang dapat jagakan dia haih macam sweet kapel pulak kan lol shes my first love ok so shadup

Eheh soooo apa lagi eh hahah lol I miss geng fast dulu. Fast and ferius beb haha lol no beb no its F= Fareez A= Adib S= Syimacomelgila T= Tira! yay!! Rindu nyaaa time tu semua macam apa tah malas gila dekat tution sampai teacher fed up hahah rindu nyee time tak matang dulu I mean ugh tahu nak have fun je tahu nak gedik gedik je tahu nak manja manja je study tunggang langgang pun takde sape marah comot macam mana sekali pun orang tetap kata comel boyfriend pun takde so jimat duit boleh beli mainan and the best thing is you always look adorable and people around you loves you! I mean look at all the past things that we used to do it was all the best things in our life you didn't even give a shit about all the bad things that people says bout you. Lol life suck day by day oh come on look at the bright side umm wait what is the bright side? Lol no just kidding there's a lot of bright side ... we just have to discover it! So keep calm and eat fried chicken! :) ((tiba tiba emo apehal ))

IF ONLY I CAN'T CONTROL MY STUPIDITY BUT SORRY I JUST CAN'T SORRY FOR BEING TOO CUTE UMM 

xoxo

Your Princess